I like this. I was never a fan of this song, I thought it was complete garbage. It’s been getting stuck in my head lately and I’m afraid to admit that I might like it a teeny tiny bit. If they could just take the stupid lyrics out of this song, I’d be all over it.
So I was up really early this morning, at around 6:00 am. I hadn’t gotten to sleep until about 2am. I had some thoughts cooking in my head all morning and I didn’t want to forget them, so I’m going to use my Tumblr for what it’s made for… blogging. This just might turn into a novel. Brace yourself.
It’s a really awkward feeling getting “Happy Halloween”, “Happy Thanksgiving”, & “Happy New Year” texts from my parents, instead of them actually being here and saying it to my face. They’ve been going through the divorce now for almost a year and it’s really tearing me up inside. Thanksgiving is my awesome mom’s favorite holiday and she makes the most amazing food. A HUGE turkey with stuffing, green bean casserole that I LOVE, mini cheesecake cupcakes, pumpkin muffins with ginger butter, like 5 different kinds of bread from her bread machine, sweet potatoes and much much more that I can’t even think of. We used to have the whole family over from my dad’s side, everyone would sit at our huge dining room table that my awesome dad made by hand, and everyone would just dig in. There was always at least three different pies, maybe ice cream cake, and more cheesecake for desert. It really was the definition of awesome.
This year I don’t have that. Even last year I didn’t. My mom left last year and was gone for over 6 months, and no one knew where she was. My dad had moved out to his girlfriend’s house. Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years were momless & dadless. This year my mom left again to make all of this amazing food for her brother and his family… in Pennsylvania! I’m in Illinois! My dad is with his new girlfriend and his replacement family today. Where will I be this year?
With my absolutely amazing boyfriend Matty, whom without I don’t think I would have gotten this far in my life, and he is who I am most thankful for this thanksgiving. He’s been so supportive through all of this, and so has his family. I’m SO thankful for them, too.
I’m thankful for the day he told me he loved me, all of our silliness, our cups of tea at midnight, when he wakes up before I do and puts his blanket over me so I stay warm and kisses my forehead or cheek or shoulder.. etc, when he pays for dinner even though he doesn’t have a job anymore ;), when he cuddles with me even though he hates cuddling, & when he comes over to be with me on the weekends even though he doesn’t have to. We didn’t know each other that long before we started dating, and sometimes it did seem like that would have been a good idea.. to be better friends first. But he really has become a great friend, and an even better boyfriend. I love Matty!
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone this year and to everyone who actually took the time to read this. Since this is one of the few times I’ve even written anything on Tumblr. :) Have a great holiday and EAT LOTS! xoxo